Happiness

I have just been thinking a little about being happy and finding joy in life. I was watching my kids play at the park today and was just filled with joy at the site of their little smiles and giggles. Thea is my little water baby she loves to get wet, swim and splash around. Ben still enjoys the water but he's a bit more hesitant he would rather play on the bouncy toys and explore the jungle gym.

Expecting #3

I am so excited to tell you that we are going to have baby #3. I found out last Sunday, I have been pretty emotional about things the last few weeks, I even cried at Thea's dental appointment cause she had a cavity then when I didnt have time to put my mascera on before church I through it in the bag to put on in the car on the way but then I forgot where I put it and I was so upset like crying, wierd. Then we were watching Hancock (an action movie) I was crying during a "tender" moment like really tears and catching my breath crying. After my last cycle was just a spotting I was like ok we are going to buy a pregnancy test, the first one was positive and Bat and I are like OH my Gosh! that explains alot, and oh my Gosh! #3 I'll take another test in a day or two, so the next test on Tuesday was also positive. So Im waiting for my first OB appointment on the 14th of September. I really am so happy and I just cant wait to welcome the completion to our family, I know he (or she) will fit right in.

Thea

I just wanna take a second to talk about my Thea. We were @ WalMart buying undershirts in the "big girl" isle now and so there were training bras and Thea asked when she would get to wear those garments pointing to a training bra that had green frogs on it, it was so cute. She sometimes gets growing pains in her legs and last night Bat and I took turns rubbing her right leg. We had a play day today with one of her classmates from school last year and they played so nice all day (literally 9 hours, I was babysitting) there was no bickering or crying it was GREAT! I just cant believe how fast she is growing, now that I have two and Thea is a little bigger the moments pass so quickly they are sometimes hard to grab. When Im busy being a mom and wife I have to remind myself to just slow down and enjoy it, enjoy her and Ben too. I have been going through some of her baby clothes and found the little outfit we brought her home in, oh I love baby pink. I guess its got me all nostalgic.

picture

I love to see pictures when I read a post so I thought you might also, the only catch is that I havent downloaded my camera in a while so this is from Easter. My step sister Michael Crowe took some family photos for us and we are waiting on those so when I get them I'll post again.

Fresh Start

The Ballao family has moved into our own cute little apartment, its in the East Valley area. We are going to be in 22nd ward, we really want to stay in East valley ward till some one says we need to go to our own but I think it will be good to really make our own life, funny five years of marriage and I'm just now having that frame of mind. Thea is so excited to have her own room and has already been sleeping though the night there, which tells me moving was a very good decision. Bat is almost half way through the surgical tech program, he will be done around the end of March or April next year. So because we have rent now and Bat isn't working as much (in order to do well in school) I am studying to take the CDL with school bus endorsement and hopefully when school starts in September I will be driving a school bus for CVSD. It actually goes right along with the goals I made earlier in the year. My little Ben Ben is also doing well with the move, we are all just right at home.

caution Downer post

Sorry i haven't blogged in a long time, I just checked out every ones blog I follow and now Im once again inspired to give you an update...We have moved into an apartment in the 22nd ward, we wanted to stay in the valley cause Bat is still going to school at Alpine college(its in the same complex as Apollo and just off the freeway by spaulding) anyway. I have to put up a disclaimer at this point, I love my mom very much and I am grateful for the things she does for me, BUT we just had to get away from her, in all fairness I am her daughter and therefore I do have some things in common with her, things I want to spend the rest of my life changing. Most days I wanted to shout about how much I hate the things she does, oh saying it out loud sounds and looks horrible but those are feelings I am trying to get over after all it is a choice and our choice was to LEAVE. I feel like I have this sick addiction to her like I hate her but need her opinion and approval on everything, well no more Bat and I found our little place on our own without her opinion or approval, Im even hanging pictures and stocking cupboards without asking her where they should go. I know I sound so dysfunctional Im 30 years old for crying out loud, we never should have moved to her house in the first place. OK OK thats my little rant sorry for the downer. It is really the best for her and for us to be on our own it wasnt a healthy relationship or environment for my family. Im so tempted to dish details but that wouldnt be right enough is enough. we are out and we can make a fresh start.

Twilight

I am in love with this series, there I said it...Im totally obsesed and loving every minute of it. I am glad I can read the whole series at once because if I had to wait to long in between Id go crazy. I love that after watching Twilight I can hear the voices and picture their faces as I read, especially Edward.